Time to the end

16 february 2009

I think today is the day i should let it go ! Don't know since when we don't talk the way we use to do, and i don't know since when i don't really care about you anymore! what going wrong i keep asking myself , just because of distance ? because we don't hang out with each other ? just because i'm not with you? i thought when you really in love someone you will be supportive? you will be understanding when you older? everytime when i need you , where are you? you are too selfish to have me , i'm enough i don't need a baby to take care of , what i want is what you can't give ! maybe is just a mistake we both make at the first .

i miss you , you know how much i miss you ? day and night every second , when i hanging out my friend, working time , shopping time no matter what i do i just cant leave your shadow behind.... i though i can overcome just let that be a stupid mistake to began with you but i just cant believe u mean so much to me !! i don't usually speak out because i scare, wasn't frighten to speak just let me feel panic that when you know too much and u choose to leave me . you told me it last forever but what is forever ? i not with you at least for 4 year you promised everything to confident me but it seem useless when i wasn't with you i don't know how will at future but i really don't hope to lose you at this moment maybe u already overcome i was the stupid person still waiting ? If this really a situation like that just don't speak dun hurt me even we no longer together , all i want is hope you to be happy even i am no the person to walk with you

blur blur ...

I'm damn blur this few day not only because of busy working and study , i even dun remember everything... stress , busy rushing , suck weather make me tired ... how long can i stand i dunno , just not yet use to it i guess ... people i know here ( those Malaysian ) i think because they life too bored always said thing like no logic making fun of people dun reli like to hang out wif them , am i doing the right decision to study away from my college fre ? shall i follow them? No , i must become more independent ...

future ? wait died lo

In my life there are so many people trying to control me asking not to do this not to do that .. i know is all for my own good just wonder what none of the people ask me alice wong what you want .. no they did , they did ask but when i telling them they just said stop dreaming world are damn realistic , omg just like i dunno if i cant have dream what should i study ? just find someone at uk married and get government support , have house have money to spend enuf for the life rite? why i nd to study damn hard ..
i dun reli know what will i do in future , i dunno and i dun hv any plan as i know everything will change , i dunno what who will be my dear in 3 year time i dunno where am i 3 year later , why must think too much?
maybe i should just follow what my so call father plan 4 me? no way ... i m quit and i nvr look back i swear ...

A day in park

this swan bit me ... if i in m'sia sure i cook it

alice wong going mad....

alice wong wat the hell u doing ? always dun confident and get confuse in ur relationship , u should believe her right? what the hell make urself become like that keep guessing and wanna end up this relationship ? when ppl care bout u , u pretend so cool 4 wat ? when ppl being caring why u scold ppl ? u always said that she the one u think shall treat her good ? jus because 10000 mile away u give up? but ...... somehow i dun think it can mantain so long ? omg 3 year is impossible , i choose my way another road to gain more knowledge make us difference , who dare said future now? everything might change whn i bak to m'sia .. as now i till can control myself should force myself stop izzit?
keep confusing ...... maybe later busy on study and working wont think to much ... aalways said let it be ... but jus cant ... perhap im deeply in love?